A Reason To Smile (Saturday 08/10/05)

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I'm at ease. My desire to complete all assignments before Ramadhan has been achieved. Quality of assignments is totally another question though i am usually very particular with my scores and would prefer to obtain Ds and HDs in assignments because i don't usually score in exams. But it's alright. I am enjoying Ramadhan now and going through my interval period - my usual slow self requires some time to set myself mentally prepared before i start to focus on the next task which is exams, so all's good. And exams this Sem falls within a week of the 2.5 week long of the usual uni exam period. It's quite a squeeze! But i have faith in myself nevertheless. I know i can do it. And after exams uni is totally over for me. But that is if i pass everything, which i should but sometimes i just lost the strength to fight and compete with my own self knowing that i'm turning into a housewife as soon as i settle down. So what's the degree for, many would ask. I choose to say it's only an investment for the future, alongside the process of the investment, i get myself a good husband who will help me turn the degree into something more meaningful than to earn material wealth and financial security that has no limit. And in my own way, i hope to pay my parents back all of their effort in providing me with good life and opportunities i would never get if i was born somewhere else, though i know i can never equalise the amount they have given me with that of mine.

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Later today I had a chat with boyfriend. We decided on honeymoon at Bawean Island, to check out the origins of my ancestors which only actually make up 25% of my mix. I'm quite looking forward to going to Indon actually despite the Bali bombings which i think shouldn't occur in Bawean as it's not a tourist destination, unless some crap human decided to make the headlines.

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Josh, if you happen to read this blog post, this one's for you: I'll write to you soon. Sorry it's taking me ages but apparently i've got lots to say in mine, so still constructing. Thanks so much for the email. I hope you've settled down, i mean, with regards to independent living. It's hard i know. But everyone who has to go thru it will naturally settle down sooner or later. I wish you the best of luck. Hope to visit you some day soon. Will let you know if plans crop up. Hope you're well. Will write to you soon. Take care, miss ya heaps.